The Unread Spread

Deck: Crowley Thoth* (Forgot to include The Lovers)

Reflection: Ace of Swords
The moment I turned this card over, I felt a negative mood. The picture on the card shows this golden brain illuminating the way, thinning the fog, but what I see is the golden brain, representive of my intellectual abilities, being shrouded by the fog, which represent the other aspects of my psyche. This is partially how I felt today when I tried to over-intellectualize many things today.

Question: What is Kelly's role in my life?

Spread:            1
                      3  4
                        2

Cards:
1) Her role in my life: Princess of Cups
2) The lesson to be learnt from her: The Empress
3) An unresolved issue with her: Queen of Wands
4) Card drawn in horrific reaction to the spread: 6 of Disks (Success)

Interpretation: None - I literally just screamed when I saw the cards. The rage of not being able to interpret anything. I know I can, but some force inside me is just preventing me from it. It's filling me up with anger and confusion. The sight of three women made me even angrier, for some reason. And in this fit of anger I drew card 4, I think to describe the nature of this imbalance of feelings inside me, which just confused me even more.

Question: What is the source of blocking in the reading above?

Spread:     6        3
                       4 1-------5
                          2     7  8

Cards:
1) Representation of me: 9 of Swords (Cruelty)
2) Internal Factor: Queen of Wands
3) External Factor: Prince of Wands
4) Psychological Factor: 3 of Disks (Work)
5) Spiritual Factor: 8 of Swords (Interference)
6) Guidance: 7 of Disks (Failure)
7) Source of Interference: Knight of Disks
8) Being Interfered: 5 of Cups (Disappointemt)

Interpretation: This looks like its going to be a really hard one to do. Yet, a very important one.

5/3/2013: Think I won't proceed with this anymore. Apart from the shitty mood, which drained all my energy, other factors discourage me. Firstly, the deck was incomplete. Secondly, the extreme reaction sort of made me forget the spreads, and what I posted above have several points worth doubting. Not doing to do any deep readings until I recover my lost energy. Sorry guys.