Deck: Crowley Thoth
Question: How can Yuk Chi's story be further improved?
Spread: 4
3
1 2
Cards:
1) Character Ray: Prince of Wands
2) Character Chris: Ace of Cups
3) Plot: 2 of Swords (Peace)
4) Guidance: 3 of Cups (Abundance)
Comments: Asking for inspiration for a friend. Not the usual kind of reading. Went pretty well, surprisingly despite failure at past attempts.
Interpretation: Immediately I see that there is conflict between the two characters. Ray as the Prince of Wands has a fiery attitude towards the decision of Chris, who made the decision on emotional want. Though I had expected Ray to be of a Swords suit, it still sort of proves my point about the tension.
The plot is Peace, so I believe there is some form of resolution between the two characters? The positioning of the cards suggest that each wield a sword, and cross it over the rose, showing some form of unified ideals between the two. That was the sign for me that either Ray should miss home or Chris should hate home. This way the contrast between the characters would also be more distinct, thus becoming more sentimental.
3 of Cups, Abundance. An abundance of emotion and the water element, I feel, so I decided that it would be better if Ray was the one who began to miss home.
All together, the cards really build up a stronger, more tear-jerking story. Cool, the cards can be used this way as well! That is, I promised there would be a lobster dinner if the piece were to win.
Notes: My explanations here may not make sense to some of you as you do not know the story. I think even in the future I might not understand this as well.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
General Astrological Spread 1
Deck: Crowley Thoth
Question: General
Spread: 10 9
11 8
12 7
1 6
2 5
3 4
Cards:
1) 1st House: 4 of Disks (Power)
2) 2nd House: The Hierophant
3) 3rd House: The Moon
4) 4th House: 10 of Swords (Ruin)
5) 5th House: Prince of Cups
6) 6th House: The Aeon
7) 7th House: 2 of Cups (Love)
8) 8th House: Princess of Swords
9) 9th House: 8 of Disks (Prudence)
10) 10th House: 8 of Swords (Interference)
11) 11th House: Queen of Wands
12) 12th House: 6 of Disks (Success)
Comments: Astrological spread. This is a general reading, and one much easier than the rest, as it simply comprises of 12 single card readings.
Interpretation: The 1st House is one regarding expressing individuality. The 4 of Disks accurately describes me, as the person who is highly interested in notions of power. I always like to imagine myself either as a powerful warrior, ruler or wizard. I also took up tarot partly due to the belief that the knowledge from it would make me powerful.
The 2nd House is one of values and resources. Again, the card rightfully shows this. I am now deeply valuing spiritual aspects in living, and use it as a resource to tap into more power and potential. Hence, The Hierophant.
The 3rd House embodies self expression, i.e. communication. The Moon is a card of mystery, and can get confusing at times. Perhaps this is true too, that my Piscean nature gives me a tendency to shroud myself in mystery. Haha!
The 4th House, the home, Ruin...... I hate my family for always quarreling over the most trivial matters. Swords are symbolic of reason and logic, too much of which starts arguments. The deck is really accurate this time......
The 5th House is of creation and recreation, and for this position I have the Prince of Cups. The Prince looks into his cup, which is symbolic of emotions, and out comes a snake, symbolic of creative energy. Creativity from emotions perhaps?
The 6th House is where we become aware of others around us. The Aeon suggests a paradigm shift in this house, which is quite true, I've only been more sociable and aware of others around me around this year.
The 7th House is about forming relationships with others, and to this I get...... Love! Wonderful sign indeed.
The 8th House is about shared resources. Rather strange that I get the Princess of Swords, but I think it shows that my new-found clarity (from the tarot I think!), is being shared with others around me.
The 9th House is a spiritual house, one of religion and philosophy. I like this house, but Prudence? Possible...... I am very careful in selecting which principles and beliefs to adopt.
The 8 of Swords in the 10th House makes even less sense to me. But then again...... I wish to see my outer world one filled with more New Age thinking, but my sharp reasoning tells me people will strongly reject my ideals of it. So, interference from striving towards my goal?
Yup. Towards the end things start to get hazy. The 11th House, one of social interaction. The Queen of Wands, hmm...... She looks quite isolated, with her inward frame, but the rays on her head shows great perception and understanding of the world around her. Sort of me I guess......
The 12th House, the house of secrets. Ooooh. But what does it even mean?! My book says return to the whole, the higher self, karma, and all that spiritual stuff. Now, the 6 of Disks is REALLY gratifying. My spiritual endeavors are being successful!
Question: General
Spread: 10 9
11 8
12 7
1 6
2 5
3 4
Cards:
1) 1st House: 4 of Disks (Power)
2) 2nd House: The Hierophant
3) 3rd House: The Moon
4) 4th House: 10 of Swords (Ruin)
5) 5th House: Prince of Cups
6) 6th House: The Aeon
7) 7th House: 2 of Cups (Love)
8) 8th House: Princess of Swords
9) 9th House: 8 of Disks (Prudence)
10) 10th House: 8 of Swords (Interference)
11) 11th House: Queen of Wands
12) 12th House: 6 of Disks (Success)
Comments: Astrological spread. This is a general reading, and one much easier than the rest, as it simply comprises of 12 single card readings.
Interpretation: The 1st House is one regarding expressing individuality. The 4 of Disks accurately describes me, as the person who is highly interested in notions of power. I always like to imagine myself either as a powerful warrior, ruler or wizard. I also took up tarot partly due to the belief that the knowledge from it would make me powerful.
The 2nd House is one of values and resources. Again, the card rightfully shows this. I am now deeply valuing spiritual aspects in living, and use it as a resource to tap into more power and potential. Hence, The Hierophant.
The 3rd House embodies self expression, i.e. communication. The Moon is a card of mystery, and can get confusing at times. Perhaps this is true too, that my Piscean nature gives me a tendency to shroud myself in mystery. Haha!
The 4th House, the home, Ruin...... I hate my family for always quarreling over the most trivial matters. Swords are symbolic of reason and logic, too much of which starts arguments. The deck is really accurate this time......
The 5th House is of creation and recreation, and for this position I have the Prince of Cups. The Prince looks into his cup, which is symbolic of emotions, and out comes a snake, symbolic of creative energy. Creativity from emotions perhaps?
The 6th House is where we become aware of others around us. The Aeon suggests a paradigm shift in this house, which is quite true, I've only been more sociable and aware of others around me around this year.
The 7th House is about forming relationships with others, and to this I get...... Love! Wonderful sign indeed.
The 8th House is about shared resources. Rather strange that I get the Princess of Swords, but I think it shows that my new-found clarity (from the tarot I think!), is being shared with others around me.
The 9th House is a spiritual house, one of religion and philosophy. I like this house, but Prudence? Possible...... I am very careful in selecting which principles and beliefs to adopt.
The 8 of Swords in the 10th House makes even less sense to me. But then again...... I wish to see my outer world one filled with more New Age thinking, but my sharp reasoning tells me people will strongly reject my ideals of it. So, interference from striving towards my goal?
Yup. Towards the end things start to get hazy. The 11th House, one of social interaction. The Queen of Wands, hmm...... She looks quite isolated, with her inward frame, but the rays on her head shows great perception and understanding of the world around her. Sort of me I guess......
The 12th House, the house of secrets. Ooooh. But what does it even mean?! My book says return to the whole, the higher self, karma, and all that spiritual stuff. Now, the 6 of Disks is REALLY gratifying. My spiritual endeavors are being successful!
Friday, March 22, 2013
How can I heal my heart?
Deck: Crowley Thoth
Question: How can I heal my heart?
Spread: 4 5
6
2 3
1
Cards:
1) Root: 10 of Disks (Wealth)
2) Symptom: The Fool
3) Symptom: The Hierophant
4) Required: 6 of Pentacles (Success)
5) Action: Lust
6) Outcome: The Sun
Comments: I know it's been quite a while since I updated, but hey, I really lost my tarot mojo these past two weeks. Its not like I didn't want to. Today, I picked up a new book, Tarot Spreads, by Barbara Moore. It gave inspiration on creating new spreads, and contains huge collection of spreads that I never knew of. It also talked on modifying not just your spreads but your rituals to spice things up, which was just what I needed apparently. I did do a reading before this, but I still found it hard to read, as it was a rather vague 3 card spread. This spread is from the book, the Healing Heart Spread. This one I asked about my general emotional situation, which basically means my depression. I flipped the cards open and the message came to me almost instantly, though it was more intuitive than theoretical. But who cares, I can read again! This reading is major dominated, a welcomed sight after the previous reading which had not even one!
Interpretation: This first card was rather difficult to read, but once I did it, it sorta kick-started the whole process. 10 of Disks, wealth. Initially I was trying to make sense of how Mercury tied in to the root of depression, but then I realised that all I needed was the Qabalistic meaning. 10, on the sphere of the Qabalah, is Malkuth, the most earthly sphere, furthest away from Kether. Being in Disks, this makes the card the most earthly of the 10s, which represents the furthest possible point from godliness. Essentially, I have lost touch with a more spiritual and divine side of life, and this is what is causing the depression.
The first symptom, card 2, is The Fool. In my study of the tarot, I have fallen in love with the fool, for it shows faith and vulnerability. Faith is what kept me going till now, and somehow I think the idea of vulnerability brings about a strength I never knew. Perhaps also this depression has clouded my thinking, making me think that life is meaningless so it wouldn't matter what happened to me in the end, making me jump straight into any situation without care of the dangers, like how the divine fool Dionysus is in this picture.
The second symptom is shown by The Hierophant. This is normally one of my problem cards, but at first sight I sort of got the jist of it. It represented my beliefs. Well, some info on my life, to solve this spiritual void that I feel, I have sought numerous solutions. Hedonism, Buddhism, Nihilism, Philosophy, Psychology, just to name a few. Such changing beliefs is a result of searching for a cure.
6 of Disks, did not use any theoratical explanation at all. Upon seeing the name Success, I knew what the card meant. I needed progress, affirmation, etc. to drive me to go on. To make me feel better of myself. Now just to add a bit of Qabalistic theory into the reading, sphere of 6, Tiphareth, is said to be the most godly state achievable in the material world. Tiphareth is also said to be your higher self, whereas Malkuth is your normal self. Thus, is the card suggesting a union with my higher self?
The Lust card. I like the Lust card. It symbolises the strength from expressing your purest, most natural desire. Expression of your natural true self, as opposed to oppression of your personality, like this goody two shoe religions tell you. Indeed, such an action taken will lead me to a greater connection to my higher self, bringing me from Malkuth to Tiphareth.
The Sun concludes this reading wonderfully. The Sun is brimming with energy, masculine fire energy. It symbolises self expression, which is what I predicted to be the result of the Lust card. The Sun can also be seen right above The Fool's crotch, which symbolises sexual creative energy. Tiphareth, which is the higher self, connected with by the means of self expression, is the sphere of The Sun, and thus its appearance in the outcome position gives me great hope.
In conclusion, the general message is to gain a higher connection with the higher self through self expression.
Notes: When typing the first sentence of the 10 of Disks, I made a ridiculous yet synchronicitic typo. "This girl card was rather difficult to read......" How funny.
It's been long since I felt I did a good job for a reading! The main problem I had was with card drawing. I wasn't confident about fanning the cards and choosing some, and the stress of choosing a card wrongly ate into my energy. This time I simply cut the deck and took the top card each time. Didn't refer to any books for this reading so it is truly an intuitive one!
Question: How can I heal my heart?
Spread: 4 5
6
2 3
1
Cards:
1) Root: 10 of Disks (Wealth)
2) Symptom: The Fool
3) Symptom: The Hierophant
4) Required: 6 of Pentacles (Success)
5) Action: Lust
6) Outcome: The Sun
Comments: I know it's been quite a while since I updated, but hey, I really lost my tarot mojo these past two weeks. Its not like I didn't want to. Today, I picked up a new book, Tarot Spreads, by Barbara Moore. It gave inspiration on creating new spreads, and contains huge collection of spreads that I never knew of. It also talked on modifying not just your spreads but your rituals to spice things up, which was just what I needed apparently. I did do a reading before this, but I still found it hard to read, as it was a rather vague 3 card spread. This spread is from the book, the Healing Heart Spread. This one I asked about my general emotional situation, which basically means my depression. I flipped the cards open and the message came to me almost instantly, though it was more intuitive than theoretical. But who cares, I can read again! This reading is major dominated, a welcomed sight after the previous reading which had not even one!
Interpretation: This first card was rather difficult to read, but once I did it, it sorta kick-started the whole process. 10 of Disks, wealth. Initially I was trying to make sense of how Mercury tied in to the root of depression, but then I realised that all I needed was the Qabalistic meaning. 10, on the sphere of the Qabalah, is Malkuth, the most earthly sphere, furthest away from Kether. Being in Disks, this makes the card the most earthly of the 10s, which represents the furthest possible point from godliness. Essentially, I have lost touch with a more spiritual and divine side of life, and this is what is causing the depression.
The first symptom, card 2, is The Fool. In my study of the tarot, I have fallen in love with the fool, for it shows faith and vulnerability. Faith is what kept me going till now, and somehow I think the idea of vulnerability brings about a strength I never knew. Perhaps also this depression has clouded my thinking, making me think that life is meaningless so it wouldn't matter what happened to me in the end, making me jump straight into any situation without care of the dangers, like how the divine fool Dionysus is in this picture.
The second symptom is shown by The Hierophant. This is normally one of my problem cards, but at first sight I sort of got the jist of it. It represented my beliefs. Well, some info on my life, to solve this spiritual void that I feel, I have sought numerous solutions. Hedonism, Buddhism, Nihilism, Philosophy, Psychology, just to name a few. Such changing beliefs is a result of searching for a cure.
6 of Disks, did not use any theoratical explanation at all. Upon seeing the name Success, I knew what the card meant. I needed progress, affirmation, etc. to drive me to go on. To make me feel better of myself. Now just to add a bit of Qabalistic theory into the reading, sphere of 6, Tiphareth, is said to be the most godly state achievable in the material world. Tiphareth is also said to be your higher self, whereas Malkuth is your normal self. Thus, is the card suggesting a union with my higher self?
The Lust card. I like the Lust card. It symbolises the strength from expressing your purest, most natural desire. Expression of your natural true self, as opposed to oppression of your personality, like this goody two shoe religions tell you. Indeed, such an action taken will lead me to a greater connection to my higher self, bringing me from Malkuth to Tiphareth.
The Sun concludes this reading wonderfully. The Sun is brimming with energy, masculine fire energy. It symbolises self expression, which is what I predicted to be the result of the Lust card. The Sun can also be seen right above The Fool's crotch, which symbolises sexual creative energy. Tiphareth, which is the higher self, connected with by the means of self expression, is the sphere of The Sun, and thus its appearance in the outcome position gives me great hope.
In conclusion, the general message is to gain a higher connection with the higher self through self expression.
Notes: When typing the first sentence of the 10 of Disks, I made a ridiculous yet synchronicitic typo. "This girl card was rather difficult to read......" How funny.
It's been long since I felt I did a good job for a reading! The main problem I had was with card drawing. I wasn't confident about fanning the cards and choosing some, and the stress of choosing a card wrongly ate into my energy. This time I simply cut the deck and took the top card each time. Didn't refer to any books for this reading so it is truly an intuitive one!
Saturday, March 9, 2013
How would my learning of the Thoth be like?
Deck: Crowley Thoth
Question: How would my learning of the Thoth be like?
Spread: 3 10
5 1X2 6 9
4 8
7
Cards:
1) Heart of the Matter: 2 of Cups (Love)
2) Hindrance: 4 of Swords (Truce)
3) Conscious Thoughts: Prince of Wands
4) Unconscious Thoughts: 3 of Cups (Abundance)
5) The Past/Receding Influence: 8 of Cups (Indolence)
6) The Future/Coming Influence: 6 of Disks (Success)
7) My Influence: 8 of Wands (Swiftness)
8) External Factors: Queen of Wands
9) Hopes and Fears: Prince of Cups
10) Outcome/Guidance: Queen of Disks
Comments: Good old Celtic Cross spread. Modified the position meanings a little from the ones I started with. Quite a shock to have drawn 10 cards without a single trump though. Might be a little harder to interpret. Don't feel like going into detail......
Interpretation: The 2 of Cups as the heart of the matter was peculiar. What had learning the Thoth had to do with feelings of love? The idea of water, emotion, in its first manifestation. Could it possibly mean that I would learn to see the love in my life, the love which I believe I cannot feel?
Next, the cross, is literally a cross. 4 of Swords, Truce. I always thought that truce was akin to peace, but I've been corrected. Truce merely means stopping conflicts mutually, though the tension still exists. Perhaps there are parts in my psyche that are in competition, that haven't learnt to co-exist? How does this affect love?
The Prince of Wands represents the person I consciously want to be. A brave young lad, wielding the active, burning energy of the fire element, charging through life heroically. Which then made me realise, the reason why I wanted to be in such a position is because it would mean that I had mastery over the masculine energies, and am fully capable of attracting the feminine. If so, however, shouldn't the knight of wands show? Why the air of fire, and not the fire of fire?
Conscious thought, in the element of fire, is contested by the water element of unconscious thought. The 3 of Cups is a further manifestation, from the 2 of Cups. It could be a balance, meaning that I do not actually wish to attract the feminine to fulfill desire, but just to gain a deeper understanding into the elements of water.
When I read about the 8 of Cups, it was described as a terrible plight to be in. Good thing it's a receding influence! The dark and murky waters are about to be cleared, giving me calmness of emotion! These days have been indeed a toll on my emotions, and this is a clear sign to have faith in the world again!
Another assuring card is the 6 of Disks as a coming influence. A superficial interpretation would be that success is on its way. Sixes are at the perfect balance, just above the abyss yet still in contact with the ace below it. Feels like I am on my way to develop a form of stability in my psyche, a stability that will endure many difficulties!
Eights, according to The Book of Thoth, represent the swift, impulsive rush of the idea. It somewhat does describe me now, as I've been furiously trying to inject more fire energy in my life, assuming it's a cure for depression. Yet my unconscious might be trying to tell me that fire is not the way to go. Perhaps this is why I have not seen much progress yet with regards to healing myself?
External influences, represented by the Queen of Wands. The girls in my life, from my perspective, seem full of energy and passion, that it feels, abnormal. Yet another conflicting pair. Opposites try to balance out, so as to reach the Qaballistic Zero. While the girls are so active, I am still injecting fire into my life? Is fire the way to go or not?
My hopes and fears, the Prince of Cups. This card I feel relates to becoming like the Air of Water, but is it a hope or a fear? Fire and water show an interesting conflict with each other in this reading. A conscious desire to express masculinity, contradicted by the unconscious thought which encouraged passivity, and now the direct opposite of the desired court card shows itself as a hope or fear. Still, why not both? A conscious fear of becoming too passive and thus unable to receive love, and an unconscious hope to slow down and feel the love for what it is. Looking at the previous two cards, the dualistic approach is an appropriate way to see this card.
Last but not least, the Queen of Disks. She is one who is well aware of what goes on in her whole existence, physical, emotional, spiritual. This spread does show a lot of contradiction, so I believe she is my guide, urging me to become more attuned to myself and clear this confusion, so that the indolence of the 8 of Cups may recede and the more extremes (Fire, Water) would tone down into the less extremes (Swords, Pentacles)
Overall, I found it a little strange. The question was on learning the Thoth, yet the focus of the interpretation somehow shifted from that to one more closely related to love. Not sure if it's my fault or meant to be. The hindrance by inharmonious aspects of me turns out to be true, as the spread develops into contradictions between the active and the passive. Eventually however, the two will find common ground and achieve the stability of the Disks.
Question: How would my learning of the Thoth be like?
Spread: 3 10
5 1X2 6 9
4 8
7
Cards:
1) Heart of the Matter: 2 of Cups (Love)
2) Hindrance: 4 of Swords (Truce)
3) Conscious Thoughts: Prince of Wands
4) Unconscious Thoughts: 3 of Cups (Abundance)
5) The Past/Receding Influence: 8 of Cups (Indolence)
6) The Future/Coming Influence: 6 of Disks (Success)
7) My Influence: 8 of Wands (Swiftness)
8) External Factors: Queen of Wands
9) Hopes and Fears: Prince of Cups
10) Outcome/Guidance: Queen of Disks
Comments: Good old Celtic Cross spread. Modified the position meanings a little from the ones I started with. Quite a shock to have drawn 10 cards without a single trump though. Might be a little harder to interpret. Don't feel like going into detail......
Interpretation: The 2 of Cups as the heart of the matter was peculiar. What had learning the Thoth had to do with feelings of love? The idea of water, emotion, in its first manifestation. Could it possibly mean that I would learn to see the love in my life, the love which I believe I cannot feel?
Next, the cross, is literally a cross. 4 of Swords, Truce. I always thought that truce was akin to peace, but I've been corrected. Truce merely means stopping conflicts mutually, though the tension still exists. Perhaps there are parts in my psyche that are in competition, that haven't learnt to co-exist? How does this affect love?
The Prince of Wands represents the person I consciously want to be. A brave young lad, wielding the active, burning energy of the fire element, charging through life heroically. Which then made me realise, the reason why I wanted to be in such a position is because it would mean that I had mastery over the masculine energies, and am fully capable of attracting the feminine. If so, however, shouldn't the knight of wands show? Why the air of fire, and not the fire of fire?
Conscious thought, in the element of fire, is contested by the water element of unconscious thought. The 3 of Cups is a further manifestation, from the 2 of Cups. It could be a balance, meaning that I do not actually wish to attract the feminine to fulfill desire, but just to gain a deeper understanding into the elements of water.
When I read about the 8 of Cups, it was described as a terrible plight to be in. Good thing it's a receding influence! The dark and murky waters are about to be cleared, giving me calmness of emotion! These days have been indeed a toll on my emotions, and this is a clear sign to have faith in the world again!
Another assuring card is the 6 of Disks as a coming influence. A superficial interpretation would be that success is on its way. Sixes are at the perfect balance, just above the abyss yet still in contact with the ace below it. Feels like I am on my way to develop a form of stability in my psyche, a stability that will endure many difficulties!
Eights, according to The Book of Thoth, represent the swift, impulsive rush of the idea. It somewhat does describe me now, as I've been furiously trying to inject more fire energy in my life, assuming it's a cure for depression. Yet my unconscious might be trying to tell me that fire is not the way to go. Perhaps this is why I have not seen much progress yet with regards to healing myself?
External influences, represented by the Queen of Wands. The girls in my life, from my perspective, seem full of energy and passion, that it feels, abnormal. Yet another conflicting pair. Opposites try to balance out, so as to reach the Qaballistic Zero. While the girls are so active, I am still injecting fire into my life? Is fire the way to go or not?
My hopes and fears, the Prince of Cups. This card I feel relates to becoming like the Air of Water, but is it a hope or a fear? Fire and water show an interesting conflict with each other in this reading. A conscious desire to express masculinity, contradicted by the unconscious thought which encouraged passivity, and now the direct opposite of the desired court card shows itself as a hope or fear. Still, why not both? A conscious fear of becoming too passive and thus unable to receive love, and an unconscious hope to slow down and feel the love for what it is. Looking at the previous two cards, the dualistic approach is an appropriate way to see this card.
Last but not least, the Queen of Disks. She is one who is well aware of what goes on in her whole existence, physical, emotional, spiritual. This spread does show a lot of contradiction, so I believe she is my guide, urging me to become more attuned to myself and clear this confusion, so that the indolence of the 8 of Cups may recede and the more extremes (Fire, Water) would tone down into the less extremes (Swords, Pentacles)
Overall, I found it a little strange. The question was on learning the Thoth, yet the focus of the interpretation somehow shifted from that to one more closely related to love. Not sure if it's my fault or meant to be. The hindrance by inharmonious aspects of me turns out to be true, as the spread develops into contradictions between the active and the passive. Eventually however, the two will find common ground and achieve the stability of the Disks.
Monday, March 4, 2013
The Unread Spread
Deck: Crowley Thoth* (Forgot to include The Lovers)
Reflection: Ace of Swords
The moment I turned this card over, I felt a negative mood. The picture on the card shows this golden brain illuminating the way, thinning the fog, but what I see is the golden brain, representive of my intellectual abilities, being shrouded by the fog, which represent the other aspects of my psyche. This is partially how I felt today when I tried to over-intellectualize many things today.
Question: What is Kelly's role in my life?
Spread: 1
3 4
2
Cards:
1) Her role in my life: Princess of Cups
2) The lesson to be learnt from her: The Empress
3) An unresolved issue with her: Queen of Wands
4) Card drawn in horrific reaction to the spread: 6 of Disks (Success)
Interpretation: None - I literally just screamed when I saw the cards. The rage of not being able to interpret anything. I know I can, but some force inside me is just preventing me from it. It's filling me up with anger and confusion. The sight of three women made me even angrier, for some reason. And in this fit of anger I drew card 4, I think to describe the nature of this imbalance of feelings inside me, which just confused me even more.
Question: What is the source of blocking in the reading above?
Spread: 6 3
4 1-------5
2 7 8
Cards:
1) Representation of me: 9 of Swords (Cruelty)
2) Internal Factor: Queen of Wands
3) External Factor: Prince of Wands
4) Psychological Factor: 3 of Disks (Work)
5) Spiritual Factor: 8 of Swords (Interference)
6) Guidance: 7 of Disks (Failure)
7) Source of Interference: Knight of Disks
8) Being Interfered: 5 of Cups (Disappointemt)
Interpretation: This looks like its going to be a really hard one to do. Yet, a very important one.
5/3/2013: Think I won't proceed with this anymore. Apart from the shitty mood, which drained all my energy, other factors discourage me. Firstly, the deck was incomplete. Secondly, the extreme reaction sort of made me forget the spreads, and what I posted above have several points worth doubting. Not doing to do any deep readings until I recover my lost energy. Sorry guys.
Reflection: Ace of Swords
The moment I turned this card over, I felt a negative mood. The picture on the card shows this golden brain illuminating the way, thinning the fog, but what I see is the golden brain, representive of my intellectual abilities, being shrouded by the fog, which represent the other aspects of my psyche. This is partially how I felt today when I tried to over-intellectualize many things today.
Question: What is Kelly's role in my life?
Spread: 1
3 4
2
Cards:
1) Her role in my life: Princess of Cups
2) The lesson to be learnt from her: The Empress
3) An unresolved issue with her: Queen of Wands
4) Card drawn in horrific reaction to the spread: 6 of Disks (Success)
Interpretation: None - I literally just screamed when I saw the cards. The rage of not being able to interpret anything. I know I can, but some force inside me is just preventing me from it. It's filling me up with anger and confusion. The sight of three women made me even angrier, for some reason. And in this fit of anger I drew card 4, I think to describe the nature of this imbalance of feelings inside me, which just confused me even more.
Question: What is the source of blocking in the reading above?
Spread: 6 3
4 1-------5
2 7 8
Cards:
1) Representation of me: 9 of Swords (Cruelty)
2) Internal Factor: Queen of Wands
3) External Factor: Prince of Wands
4) Psychological Factor: 3 of Disks (Work)
5) Spiritual Factor: 8 of Swords (Interference)
6) Guidance: 7 of Disks (Failure)
7) Source of Interference: Knight of Disks
8) Being Interfered: 5 of Cups (Disappointemt)
Interpretation: This looks like its going to be a really hard one to do. Yet, a very important one.
5/3/2013: Think I won't proceed with this anymore. Apart from the shitty mood, which drained all my energy, other factors discourage me. Firstly, the deck was incomplete. Secondly, the extreme reaction sort of made me forget the spreads, and what I posted above have several points worth doubting. Not doing to do any deep readings until I recover my lost energy. Sorry guys.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Deck Interview: Crowley Thoth
Deck: Crowley Thoth
Question: An interview of the deck
Spread: 6
4 5
1
2 3
Cards:
1) Characteristic of the deck: 4 of Wands (Completion)
2) Weakness of the deck: The Moon
3) Strength of the deck: Princess of Wands
4) What the deck can teach me: Adjustment
5) How can I best learn from the deck: 10 of Wands (Oppression)
6) Outcome of using the deck: 5 of Wands (Strife)
Interpretation: The 4 of Wands in describing the deck is clear: the deck is complete, bearing images and symbols which can describe any occurrence in the universe, the characteristic of any good tarot deck. This tells me the Thoth was the right choice.
The Moon, in describing the deck's weaknesses, tells me a few things. On the surface level, I see two people, represented as the jackals. Both of them are encased in towers, and are unable to connect consciously. Only subconsciously, as shown by the waves underneath them. I get the feeling that I cannot really read into people using the Thoth, not now at least. From Mirror of the Soul, the jackals are described to be guardians of the narrow path, the path to knowledge. What this means to me is that the knowledge of the Thoth is very subtle, as I have read, and requires me to break through many intellectual barriers to get to them.
The Princess of Wands is probably the only court card in the Thoth that I am confident in reading. The princess slays the tiger, and grows feathers on her head. This is symbolic of overcoming of fear (tiger), which leads to increased energy and perception (feathers growing). Being in the element of fire, I believe the Thoth can help me discover and overcome some of my fears and rediscover the fire element within me, allowing me to tap into its energy and breaking free from depression.
Adjustment is also quite clear here. The Thoth can teach me how to find balance between dual sides, such as integrating intellect with creativity, conscious and unconscious, logic and intuition.
On the 10 of Wands, the power of the 8 of Wands is being held down by two wands, similar to those of the 2 of Wands. A lot of energy is being suppressed, as a result of fear of that energy. The deck has told me that it is complete in the sense that it comprises the totality of the universe, and hence, to fully learn the secrets of the Thoth, I have to break through that fear and realise the totality in myself. Only then can I connect with the deck on the highest level. I could use its strength in the Princess of Wands to free myself from such fear as well. Seeing how the lesson the deck claims it will teach me is balance, it makes sense that I have to free this suppressed side of me and integrate it with my open side in order to achieve a balance.
The 5 of Wands is similar in design to the 10 of Wands. Based on just pictorial feelings, I could say that fewer wands being suppressed, and only 1 wand is left to suppress it. It is, in fact, a direct half of the previous suppression. Being an outcome, this assures me that the energy suppressed within me can find some form of expression. However, there is still the other half that remains suppressed. Perhaps they require other practices besides the Thoth to be released, perhaps another Tarot system or spiritual endeavor.
Question: An interview of the deck
Spread: 6
4 5
1
2 3
Cards:
1) Characteristic of the deck: 4 of Wands (Completion)
2) Weakness of the deck: The Moon
3) Strength of the deck: Princess of Wands
4) What the deck can teach me: Adjustment
5) How can I best learn from the deck: 10 of Wands (Oppression)
6) Outcome of using the deck: 5 of Wands (Strife)
Interpretation: The 4 of Wands in describing the deck is clear: the deck is complete, bearing images and symbols which can describe any occurrence in the universe, the characteristic of any good tarot deck. This tells me the Thoth was the right choice.
The Moon, in describing the deck's weaknesses, tells me a few things. On the surface level, I see two people, represented as the jackals. Both of them are encased in towers, and are unable to connect consciously. Only subconsciously, as shown by the waves underneath them. I get the feeling that I cannot really read into people using the Thoth, not now at least. From Mirror of the Soul, the jackals are described to be guardians of the narrow path, the path to knowledge. What this means to me is that the knowledge of the Thoth is very subtle, as I have read, and requires me to break through many intellectual barriers to get to them.
The Princess of Wands is probably the only court card in the Thoth that I am confident in reading. The princess slays the tiger, and grows feathers on her head. This is symbolic of overcoming of fear (tiger), which leads to increased energy and perception (feathers growing). Being in the element of fire, I believe the Thoth can help me discover and overcome some of my fears and rediscover the fire element within me, allowing me to tap into its energy and breaking free from depression.
Adjustment is also quite clear here. The Thoth can teach me how to find balance between dual sides, such as integrating intellect with creativity, conscious and unconscious, logic and intuition.
On the 10 of Wands, the power of the 8 of Wands is being held down by two wands, similar to those of the 2 of Wands. A lot of energy is being suppressed, as a result of fear of that energy. The deck has told me that it is complete in the sense that it comprises the totality of the universe, and hence, to fully learn the secrets of the Thoth, I have to break through that fear and realise the totality in myself. Only then can I connect with the deck on the highest level. I could use its strength in the Princess of Wands to free myself from such fear as well. Seeing how the lesson the deck claims it will teach me is balance, it makes sense that I have to free this suppressed side of me and integrate it with my open side in order to achieve a balance.
The 5 of Wands is similar in design to the 10 of Wands. Based on just pictorial feelings, I could say that fewer wands being suppressed, and only 1 wand is left to suppress it. It is, in fact, a direct half of the previous suppression. Being an outcome, this assures me that the energy suppressed within me can find some form of expression. However, there is still the other half that remains suppressed. Perhaps they require other practices besides the Thoth to be released, perhaps another Tarot system or spiritual endeavor.
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